I’m in pure survival mode right now.

I haven’t been able to do vlogs or respond to vlog comments… I haven’t had time to watch my favorite TV shows (except for True Blood because seriously, a girl NEEDS her vamp fix)… I have barely had time to shower.

Why?

Well… I’m crushing it (to borrow a Gary Vee term)…

Not by choice.  Certainly I wouldn’t be running through this insane schedule of wake, work, Willow, work, sleep for three-four hours, wake, work, etc., etc. by CHOICE.  I mean, I did this sort of crazy ass schedule before I had Willow but it’s much different when you want to because you are young and have zero commitments and yada yada versus being older, with a baby and working to reach what feels like an insane goal.

You see… we bought our first house.  Remember when I was FREAKING OUT about the whole bank situation?  Well, I got over it and we found a house we love and the bank approved us and we close on the house in November but…

and yes, there is a GIANT EFFING BUT…

Not only do we need our down payment, which we have saved, but we also need other monies for other things and it totals like a bajillion dollars.  Okay… not really a bajillion but I don’t want to say exactly how much because I don’t want to induce my stress onto you.

Let’s just say that it’s a lot.

So… I’ve been busting my bum working like a crazy fool to attempt to earn all of the money we need to earn prior to closing.  These were mostly unforeseen costs… things we weren’t expecting… so it was shocking but seriously, you can’t go back on your dream house just because this little (I mean FREAKING GIANT) mountain is in front of you… right?!

So yeah.  I’ve been insane.  Which is why I haven’t been making vlogs on my YouTube video. :*(

Once we get through the next two months (TWO MONTHS TODAY – YAY!), I’ll be a more doting and attentive friend… I’ll be a better vlogger… I’ll be NORMAL and SANE and CALM.  Right now I am crazy.

Somehow though, I am keeping it (mostly) together.  I think it’s knowing that we will do it… we will have every penny earned prior to November 8.  It’s the thought process that… well… we don’t really have a choice!!

So, love me anyway while we get through this crazy, chaotic time and if you have any suggestions on where I can find a bajillion dollars quickly, lemme know haha

xo